I'm fucking mental

month

August 2010

30 posts

bonjour bitches!

well i made it to france safely! ive seen paris, and the courtyside of france where i stayed in a chateu. im now currently in the french rivera enjoying a pina colada! :D Im having a blast of a time! i cant wait for germany! but i have drank a great deal! Not good!

I got called fat

By a small child yesterday, you know they speak the truth…..

its 5 to 3 in the morning...

when most people are still crawling into bed… Im getting up. Ive had 2 hours sleep and I was drenched in sweat… Im so nervous! its not the tour that scares me, Its getting there alive that worries me!

shit cameras make me angry

I brought a fairly cheap camera for Europe thinking that it would be better than the one i have now. Sadly its not, the photos are blurry, I lent the camera to someone else, and to my dismay i thought i wouldn’t have a camera! I was so upset! But thanks to the beautiful lauren and ben i now have one…. Hopefully i will be able to take some awesome photos! See you in 14 days

I cant wait for my trip around europe…. Although I’m scared out of my wits!

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself...

Dear Sam, Although this is hard to put down, I am going to try. No matter how much you put yourself down, people love you and think your beautiful, and you do know that. You just dont want to admit it, and one day you will find someone that will treat you properly and love you for your imperfections. I love the way that you attempt to have at least a smile on your face, every day… even...

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about...

Hmm. everything? If that is humanly possible…. My lack of trust in men that i have feelings for, I have to accept that they like me for me, not those petter girls that come their way, because well.. Their with me…. Thats what ends up pushing most of them away, well i think so anyway… Im such a paranoid bitch! No wonder im single

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone...

well. im going to cause some controversy here… And if ya dont like it. Deal. If i got pregnant right now, I would abort it. obviously it was a one night stand, im overseas, and i probably wouldint know the guy if i fell over him… If i was in a relationship tho, that would be a different story…. Hate me if you want. But i am entitled to my opinion

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right...

being right where i am…. I could do this forever Need i say more?

Leg sore and itchy! Downsides of getting a tattoo!

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on...

Year 11 there was a point where i actually tied a noose…. I hated life. I was hated by people i thought i loved, and people that i thought should have stayed neutral in the situation…. But as what i said yesterday…. thats what happens, it makes you stronger. I cant hate them forever, and it would be stupid to let that rule my life.

I became so embarrassed by something that was said the other day about me and a certain boy…. Embarrassed to the point where i could feel the red rising up my face and the heat just run through my body to the point where i had to take off my jacket to cool down! I have not been that embarrassed in a very, very long time what does that mean? I cant possibly like him. That would...

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive...

Because of some of my family and friends. Some friends i dont speak to anymore, some of them i still do. I believe that people walk in and out of your life for a reason, once they have served their purpose in your life they can leave, but sometimes they stay, and thats even better. So the people that have made an impact on my life are those people. Good or bad. Oh and insulin…

Oh Edinburgh Boys....

you get my motor running!

Today I felt invisible. I dont know if I’m the only one that ever feels this way but sometimes i feel like I’m the only crazy person… Today for example: we needed and extra table, because the 11 of us could not fit on one table, so whilst in this small cafe, we waited for the other people to leave and plan to steal their table. Because no one wanted to do it, I just did it. I...

I feel lonely today. Don’t know why!

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain...

These questions are hard… um *sigh*

“Leave all your love and your loving behind, you cant carry it with you if you...”

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in...

Not much really…. Everything happens for a reason, and i dont regret most of the things in my life…. Although I do get annoyed by them

Cross out what you have done.. Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. ...

“Happiness hit her like a train on a track, coming towards her stuck still no...”

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car...

did they die? because if they didint then i would go to the hospital and ask for forgiveness… This actually happend to my brother where is friend died in a car accident, that friday before he died he called him a C U Next Tuesday… and i think it really effected him, he visited his grave almost every week. I guess that was his healing mechanism. me? I dont know what i would do. It...

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

I drink I have done drugs before but there is a fine line between having fun, and to the point where it starts to wreck your life. I have seen it and its not fun, and thats the part of drugs and alcohol I dont like

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do...

You can believe whatever you want to believe… Just dont force it on me… Thats all

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

All for it nuff said!

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your...

uhm…. I dont know…. I’ll get back to you